Rollar Coaster of Emotions

I have been driving myself absolutely crazy. Everytime I see wedding pictures my first thought is oh... why didn't I do something like that?

I think my problem is that I am incredibly indecisive and am often times very critical of myself. It in fact drives Mr. Pearl crazy, and I don't blame him. It's just that when i see pictures like this (see left) that I start to feel just a little well... I guess jealous?

I don't think that it means that I'm going to dislike our wedding, in fact it may just be that I can't really see how our wedding is all going to come together. And I've come to the conclusion after talking to a few other brides, that these feelings are normal, at least for some ladies.

For me, I think it comes with this constant anxiety and a desire to have a perfect, drool- worthy wedding. While I realize that all that really matters on that very special day is that Mr. Pearl and I are at each others sides, the OCD , perfectionist part of me wants complete perfection, every detail in it's place.

It doesn't help that on top of these feelings of jealousy and anxiety that I also feel guilty and silly and selfish for feeling this way.

So what's the consensus?Are these normal feelings, or am I being a brat?